i think i lost that 50

its currently 11.07am.

i would like to make an announcement to all healthy people in the world. thank you thank you thank you. for visiting me, for the duas, for the foods..for everything.

so this morning i got a visit from an auntie. i think she works in my dads office. but wallahi when i saw her the three words that popped out of my mind were, 'WHO. ARE. YOU?'. and maybe thats the sweeet part of it, i mean i do not know you, but then you came to my house first thing in the morning, said hi, and shoved a 50 bucks into my hand. how good can life be eh? alhamdulillah to that, specifically to that 50 bucks first, and then to that lady..hehe.

but, to come and visit me at 9am in the morning, was a bit, MEAN, i dare say. yes its the thoughts that counts, alhamdulillah, but i dont think you have to think of me first thing in the morning.

i'm a partially-sick 19 year old. where do you expect i will be, at 9am in the morning, while its raining, while the air chills the back of my bone, while im sleepy, at 9am in the morning? at 9am in the bloody morning??? (i came to a conclusion that bloody is NOT a bad word. its blood,its red, its not bad)

okay i know islam teaches us not to sleep after the morning prayer, but i'm still working on it, do not give me that omigod-u-slept-after-fajr look. you look like a pirate.

back to boredom. so my dad woke me up at 9 and he was sayin something like 'get up, my staff is here to see you, just put on your abaya and come down'

and being me now, it took me about 10 minutes to get out of bed, because the doc said that, 'you cant twist your back like this, nor u can do this, neither can you move like that, after 6 months'. so you add that with a high degree of sleepiness, and tadaaaa, it took me 20 minutes or more to get out of bed. its not long, its just not fast enough.

then i took my abaya, put on my scarf, put on my socks. brush my teeth. wash my face. ready to go.

ana asif, its boring.

ma'a salama.

how will it feel like being hospitalized eh?

scoliosis is a medical condition in which a person's spine is curved from side to side. this condition affects approximately 7 million people in the United States. by the way, if u search 'scoliosis' on wiki, you'll realize that the first two lines up there were the exact same thing as wiki stated. and i do not know why i'm telling you this too. it is sooo not trivial. i am so sickly random now. what what whattt?

moving on.. i was diagnosed with scoliosis (i dont think thats the right word to use, but i dont think you care) few years back, and now the degree of crook-ness is somewhere around 38 or 40. i'm gonna bore you with uninteresting facts of my crooked bone at the back of my back, which is called the spine, if you dont know. so how the doc explained it was like, if its no more than 40 degrees, then im safe, if its more than 40, there'll be some weird complications later in life. then papa and mama was like 'okay whatever doc, it's on'.

then i made a genius suggestion. a suggestion suggested by a genius me :

i will let the docs 'redesign' my spine, only if i'm allowed to not take the final exam somewhere around April, because my mind is already in random places in Egypt (i'll bore you with that in later post). so after lots and lots of istikharahs by mama papa and me, i do not have to take the exam, and i will have to let the docs incise(google it) the skin at my back and put some screws inside me, 18 to be exact, so that i can 'get taller' and 'live a better life', cos thats what the doc said..whatever it is, a big insyaAllah to all of that :)


and the doc will say, 'screw you!'


that wasnt funny



i hope and i pray for the best.
and can u pray for me too, please?
for the success of this operation.
before, during, and after the operation.
insyaAllah.
i'll leave everything to Allah the Almighty the Most Loving,
and to your duas, and my duas.

ameen :)

it is just facebook for God's sake!

i saw a friend joining a fan page on facebook, on 'knowing who removed u from the friend list'

i was like... woman, seriously?? are you really that desperate? now in this particular 'case', YOU are the LOSER, not the one removing you. it is embarassing when someone removes you from facebook, its like when your teacher throws your exam paper towards you, with the 'in your fayyce!' expression. you know how it feels aite?

so why bother checking out? he removed your from his friend list. so what?? we move on woman, we dont look back, be sad or even put a fight out of it, but we go and get a life. or get a drink. get a coke. a vanilla coke. chew it.

al-Fussilat (41:34)

be good to others, even if they throw craps at you. yes, repel evil with whats better. we're muslims. thats what we do. we dont be a chicken and backbite others behind their backs, and neither do we go over the limit and put a fight! hatred will soon cool down, so why bother igniting the fire? 

so now I sleep

and there goes my 33 Lailahaillalah(s)

Lailahaillallah *there is no deity worth of worship but Allah*

Lailahaillallah *there is no deity worth of worship but Allah*

Lailahaillallah *okayyy*

Lailahaillallah *I wanna*

Lailahaillallah *go online*

Lailahaillallah *right after*

Lailahaillallah *this*

Lailahaillallah *but*

Lailahaillallah *I’ll watch*

Lailahaillallah *HBO first*

Lailahaillallah *wow*

Lailahaillallah *I can hear*

Lailahaillallah *meself *

Lailahaillallah *I’m hungry!*

Lailahaillallah *ah krapp…*

Lailahaillallah *concentrate!*

Lailahaillallah *there is no deity worth of worship but Allah*

Lailahaillallah *there is no deity worth of worship but Allah*

Lailahaillallah *I guess*

Lailahaillallah *I can*

Lailahaillallah *blog this*

Lailahaillallah *will it*

Lailahaillallah *be okayy?*

Lailahaillallah *its not*

Lailahaillallah *funny*

Lailahaillallah *its seriously*

Lailahaillallah *wrong*

Lailahaillallah *but I*

Lailahaillallah *can't stop*

Lailahaillallah *oh my lord,*

Lailahaillallah *there is no God*

Lailahaillallah *but You*

Lailahaillallah *moving on, next is…o yea, Allahuakbar..*

                                                suratul qiyaamah (75:20,21)

So now it’s a Monday morning, 6.30 am as I’m typing. I just finished my fajr prayer. I just had my suhoor at around 5.20, and now I’m hungryyyyy. When I say I’m hungry, I really do, I really mean it. And we have about 12 hours more to go.. rightttt!

I find the whatever-thing-I-wrote-up-there stupid, cos it shows how bad I am in concentrating. Or maybe it just shows how freakin weak my faith is?

I really am bad at concentrating. I only concentrate during the last 3 minutes of almost every lecture. I played with myself when class just started, I dozed off halftime. I copied every single thing on the board while listening to BoyzIIMen and when I’m not sleepingresting . Watching the lecturers opening their mouths so wide without actually listening to anything that came out of it, is actually funny. Its like watching someone who insanely just move his mouth around, I call them gila, which means crazy.

No I don’t call my lecturers crazy, I just kinda imagine it. Get what I mean?

Oh u do that in classes too??

no offense adams

A woman gives birth to a baby and afterward the doctor comes into the room and says, "I have something to tell you about your child ..."

The woman slowly sits up with a worried look on her face and says, "What's wrong with it?"

The doctor says, "There's nothing really wrong with it, it's just a little different! It's a hermaphrodite."

The woman looks confused. "A hermaphrodite, what's that?"

The doctor replies, "It has both features of a male and a female."

The woman looks relieved. "What? You mean it has a penis and a brain?"


(its from hereherehere)